I say the word taxing and not overwhelming. Not once did I feel that I was overwhelmed or put upon in any of this. In fact, I was most happy when everything was happening all day. My days this summer started around 7am and ran straight forward until 11 pm some nights and I couldnt have been more pleased. This,...was a once in a lifetime oppurtunity, I f_cking knew it then and I f_cking know it now.
With the summer over though, my wife told me to just relax a little and enjoy a few days off before college started for me (she is a smart woman) I attempted to take her advice but failed misreably.
The first morning of school for the kids found me home alone in our new house for up to five hours before I picked them up. I marveled in the sound of silence, the still calm that both myself and our dog didnt want to disturb. I sat and just relaxed..........Ten minutes later, I was bored as hell.
I dont want to relax man! I need action! So I work.
I am not a talented individule. I do not win lotteries and I do not get a lot of good breaks. What I have is a constant and almost obsessive work ethic based out of my marriage and my family. I say its based out of my marriage and family because without them, I honestly would do nothing....accomplish nothing....be nothing. Left to my own devices for multiple hours I would order and consume a pizza, drink a beer, sit on the couch and then begin the process of de-evolving, nothing more. So I work.
I have found that I am happiest being completly and almost monastically devoted to accomplishing goals that benifit my family. I am not in school to fullfill some long lost goal of aquiring a degree, I'm in school to get a job that earns more money for my family and to show my childeren that a college education is mandatory. While I'm in school full time, I also work 12 hour days on weekends and on-call hours during the week. I'm there for my husband duties, home maintenence and repair, homework with kids, therapy sessions and occasionally I try to plan date night with the wifey.
I'm not martyring myself as the "everlasting dedicated father", I'm simply explaining a phenomena that I have seen in myself and other men in my age bracket. We work.
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Ha ha, that's for sure. You sure aren't a "talented individule" You aren't even a talented individual. Although my personal favourite is "benifit my family". Date night with the wifey? Bet you have to blow her up first with a bike pump!
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